Since i won't be able to enter my bedroom for the next few hours due to the unbearable and very toxic smell of fixative varnish and won't go outside since i impressively burned my skin without standing under the sunlight and am now a shrimp, why not update this beauty here?
Well... relatively prolific last few days for drawing, besides the slightly forced nature... i'll focus on drawing stuff for some other people, i think, gifts are somewhat fun *looks at the art trade with ~haruh*. Of course it all depends a lot on my determination and moods X3 time is what i have now, and as such i'll use it. It would help to not be so hot... nothing i can do about that.

Taking suggestions for reading and listening in general :3

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!

Though i'm absolutely not interested/ moody right now X3 i wanted to spend New Year somewhere interesting or with my boyfriend... none will happen. At least i'll get to knoe Foz do Iguaçu the next few days, so do not expect much activity form me. I do want to post something before i go though... a little new ID.

Can anyone explain my bad moods of late? According to a certain person i'm only ever happy doing indecent things... :sigh:

And thus is december the end. Marks the end of the year, the end of my school life and the end of the stress, luckily. I'm going to miss this year, even if it was completely unproductive when it comes to drawing. I've no idea how things will unfold, and it makes me nervous. I wish i'd be able to do more next year, and recover my drawing habit to its fullest... i want to study. Or rather, to discover. To know. Curiosity killed the cat, and it shall do the same to me. I want to know about music, art, literature, history, philosophy, psychology, sociology, anything related to man and principally the cultural aspects, and art. Above all, i want to understand as much as i can about everything. I want to express it through my art,what i see, what i think and feel, and i want it to be on my stories. I want them to make people wonder about things, and search for their interpretations and opinions inside themselves. And that they never judge without knowing. It feels all so foreign, so impossible... but i want this. When i look around, i see people doing marvelous pieces of art. I want to be there too, doing such things. And now i can think of is how bored i am and nothing, nothing interests me. It's the most awful feeling ... to want, but not to want. To have every opportunity, and never being sure if you're really making the best of it. When your mind is confusion, a mixture of everything, there's so little possibility to put it in order...

I'm a bit down, and generally tired, so i wouldn't expect much activity from me if i were you. Well... last month of last year in school, basically. And a few other things that are leaving me overfilled with feelings of the intense, uncontrollable kind... damn, i feel so out of it.

I'm not sure i'll be drawing soon... just don't forget me here XD I've a terribly hard time with getting beyond the sketch stage without hating everything in front of me. So, well... another month past and nothing from me.

I wish i'd done something fun on Halloween ;3; *glares at friends* i did watch Inglorious Basterds by Quentin Tarantino though, and it was such sadistic fun!

Also, must finish Sandman.

Rereading EVA

Need MOAR vampiric stuff.

It seems my birthday is here... and october is almost over i'm so... well... i've so little to say i don't feel older, but don't like thinking of myself as young and naive. Not really. Who knows. Ok, i'll draw something. Maybe. Or not. And read like a good girl... come to think of it, i'm doing that all right. Hmm. Stalk redheads then. Sounds nice... good plan for a birthday.